when you love someone
you dont feel hungary
anymore
you feel
content
heppy
fine
and full
i want that feeling that again

drawing is my compassion

im afraid i might
do
something
wr
ong to you
im afraid
i might hurt
you
make you cry
make
you vunerable
im sorry
forgiveme

iwish i could
just
sigh
,,
erase
that
in my life
just make it go away
just make it gone
i want to erase it
run away from it
but i shouldnt run
im not a coward,
i know i can face it
fear, the one thing i hate
the one thing i cannot face
but,,, i can iwill

you know that feeling,
when
you feel so nervous that you cant breath
so nervous that you keep sighing
butter
flies
in your tummy
sweatypalms
you know that your gonna die kcus
you cant breath
but you dont care
you dont care at all
all you care bout
is that
one
person
the person you love
the person you adore
and care for ,
and you think inside
"wow, i think .... ilove him"
ialways wanted this feeling, the feeling of love

3.23.O9

hep-pi-ness;
ialways wondered what the meaning of heppiness was .


1.
the quality or state of being happy.
2.
good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy.

be heppy
stay heppy
get heppy

GOALS:

lose 2O pounds , take bracess, do pushupss, run everyday,

situpss, taekwondo, yoga, get a goood grade in math&ic3,

go to beach, practice clarinet, finish artt, do QT's, no junkies,

no dinner, sleep earlierr,

ILOVEYA JINNER :)

i ve been thinking,

and ithink our friendship is something that can never be replaced, or forgotten

and

thats what i love about it

,,

i have a lovar now,
ahaha kinda fuhneey
a fake lovar ?
or is it real ?
maybe im really falling,
fall
in
g
de
eeee
eee
p in ,,

he brings the bundle of joy to my life.

myfran : if you had to save yor mom or dad who would you save,,,?

me : i would save my brother,

thisweek

this is week is bad,
not very bad
but just bad,,
and i dont like it,
iwish it could get better,
and maybe it will
but i have a feeling its gonna get worse.
ihope not.
but it probably will.